….especially when it’s with yourself.

It’s a silly little game we play, continuing patterns we know are not good for us. Over-analyzing. Over-eating. Careless thinking. Dating the wrong people. Second guessing ourselves. Smoking. Crazed nit-picking. Over-spending. Obsessive worrying. Disregard for reality. Refusal to take responsibility. The list is long, pick your poison.

Maybe we continue the cycle because that seems to be easier than breaking [up with] the cycle. Too lazy to put  in the effort. Decidedly ignorant of the benefits of a looming break up.

Break ups are exhausting both mentally and physically. They’re far from easy, because they take a toll on nearly every single area of your life. I’ve had my share of not so great relationship break ups, but I’ve also been through many personal break ups as well. (some successful, some not so much) I’m convinced those personal break ups might be harder. The intangible, mental ones where deep down inside no one is to blame other than yourself.

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. It’s worth it. It’s worth it. Keep reminding yourself that it’s worth it. They say it takes 21 days to break a habit or form a new one. But what about a thought process that has been brooding for the past 27 years? How long does it take to break that? I’ll tell you what, it’s probably a bit longer than 21 days that’s for sure. Oh dear.

It’s worth it. It’s worth it. It’s worth it.

So how about it? Anybody else going through or contemplating a mental breakup with yourself?

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